Tuesday, May 20, 2014

Getting to Happy

It seems always during my writing, other ideas or thoughts tend to come to me. Things I need to do, or would like to get done, feelings about things I've gone through in my life, what my future holds. Any number of things, and generally not what I'm trying to work on. During one of these moments I got thinking about how I think about myself.

And so here it is, just the way it came into my head.

I like me.

I really do.

Sure there's things I could change, but then again if they were gone, I would no longer be me. I like those brown spots on my tummy and my few extra pounds. I love the fact I can be happy alone as well as out with friends. I'm proud of myself for being creative, and working towards my goals in writing.

I've come to the thought that the reason why I'm not as popular or have an overload of friends, isn't a fault in me, but those around me. I'm fun, caring, loyal, and a damn good friend. And if you can't see that, that's your problem, not mine.

Fear of the unknown can hold us back, so can fear of rejection. But what's the worst that can happen? You can't lose what you never had. I need to remember that more.

In embracing me, I'm embracing and letting go of my fears. It won't be easy, I know. I also know I'm going to hit a few blocks along the road. The success isn't in finishing the goal, it's in starting it. Life's too short to not like yourself, to not embrace your flaws and imperfections.  We all have them.

So here's to showing them off, being yourself, and loving who you are. I'll show you mine, if you show me yours.


Monday, March 24, 2014


I'm blaming the weather, there's really nothing else to blame. I don't think.

I'm blaming the weather for this crappy mood I've been in the last few weeks. I haven't felt like doing anything, and everything is suffering for that. Most of all my writing.

A few ideas came into my head the other day; but whether it was the cold, or time it took to get my computer and music turned on, I had lost it. One of these days I might actually do something productive, of some sort.

Winter has also made getting out to do things harder as well. Bad roads, mounds of snow, and freezing temps make even getting the mail a life risking event. I'm ok being a homebody, until I HAVE to stay home.

Bright side, my Simon has gotten to spend lots of time cuddling with his favorite person. Can't say I minded that part.

With spring finally trying to warm things up, I'm hoping letting the sun in will break up my cabin fever. My goal for the rest of the month is to clean up my writing and writing music folders, as well as going in search of new writing music. I've been in a Beatles/60's kick here of late. For working though I need a bit softer sounds.

I'm open to new musical ideas too. Have something you think I need to hear, or may like, shoot me a comment and let me know what it is.I also need to clean up the blogs, maybe a new layout for the summer? My website could use some love too. Maybe even a haircut.

As for now, my clock just rolled over on five am. I think a good-nights sleep may help perk me up as well.

Now to get Simon off my side of the bed.

Thursday, January 30, 2014

Never too late

I will admit, I have a bad habit of procrastinating. I tell myself I'll start that diet Monday or I will finish reading that Library book before it's over due, I'm going to sit down and write at least one page today. Then I get out of bed, and all plans fall apart.

It's never going to be the right time to start doing that project, finish working on that book, whatever else on my list. I need to make the time, even if there really isn't. I need to finish my list before I add more to it, and there will always be more to add to it.

So let me give you my list:
  1. Stop finding others things to do instead of working
  2. Let go of the fear of failure ( you only fail if you don't try)
  3. Clean out my closet of all the junk
  4. Let go of my past. (It only holds me back)
  5. Be brave ( do one brave thing every day)
  6. Finally get into my bathing suit weight
  7. Figure out how to get everything done in the shower before the water gets cold
  8. Be myself, and love who I am... no matter what
  9. Forgive
  10. To Be Continued....

Saturday, January 25, 2014

Just a thought

I have a question for anyone who may read this blog. Why are we so angry? As a country as a whole I mean. Why do we have to put people or things down? What's the benefit of thinking negative?
I saw a comment on Facebook for a picture of a puppy that was nothing but mean and rude. It's a puppy, what did it ever do to you, that you have to be so mean about it? I think Facebook in general seems to be a breeding ground for negative comments on just about anything anymore.

I remember when I was in school we all were taught if we didn't have anything nice to say, than to not say anything. I'm sad to see that rule is no longer practiced. I have to admit I would like to see it enforced a little bit stronger.

Which brings me to my next thought. I can't turn on the TV anymore with out it being 'Breaking News' of some shooting someplace. No one seems to be phased by this now. I personally don't feel safe anywhere. Why? At what point do the law makers have the light bulb go on? I get it, people love their guns. But who needs a military style weapon in a mall, except for... well the military? Hmm?

And the news and law makers like to blame the video games, or rappers for all the violence. How about blaming the news. The news always has the newest shooting coverage on a three or four day repeat or until the the next shooting. We all know the names of the shooters, but tell me how many know the name of ONE victim.

Did anyone ever think that maybe the reason so many shootings seem to happen, is because the shooter wants to be famous? It does seem to be easier to get famous by killing people doing their Christmas shopping then trying to be an actor or musician.

How many more shootings where people are hurt and killed does there have to be before it changes? Whats the breaking point? Everybody thought that the Sandy Hook shooting was the straw that broke the camels back. Yet we aren't even a month deep into 2014 and already on our what... 3rd shooting?

Really? No one can come up with ideas to stop this yet? Here's a thought, since the adults seem to be having such a hard time, let's go ask some five year old's their thoughts.

Anger creates more anger. And what is the anger even motivated by, a picture posted online? Think about this for a second. Why are you letting something that happened online cause a fight? Everyone wants to stop cyber-bullying and in person bullying, but yet what do you think it is when you post negative comments on that puppy picture?

Nothing will ever change unless enough people get sick and tired of being sick and tired. I've seen goodness in the world. But it shouldn't only happen when tragedy happens, it should happen because it's Monday or Wednesday.

America has the most gun related violence over every other country. What does that tell you?

Thursday, January 23, 2014

Whats in my head 2014

So my first blog of the new year, and I even managed to do it in January. Am I good or what? So we are going to blame parts of this blog on lack of sleep and a bit of an emotional day. That emotional day can be found here. Have tissues ready, though that may just be me.

I've also been sorting, finishing up, erasing and redoing my newly launched author website. I can't remember if I blogged about it in my last post or not, doing it again anyway. Please check it out, I worked hard on it. I'm still working hard on it, changes are being made all the time. As well as updates and news about what I'm doing with my writing.Find it here.

I've been tossing around ideas in my head as to what I want to make this blog become in this new year. I want to keep it as a personal blog, I like being able to share all the randomness that lives in my head. However, It feels as if it's missing that special spark, that thing that makes it a go to blog. My life hasn't been as blog worthy last few years as I would have liked it.

I know I'm planning on fixing that, but it's going to be a slow go. In the meantime, as an author myself, how about adding a few book reviews, movie, music, TV. Whatever hits me in the moment? I'm open to advice and things you would like to see from me. It's a brand new year, and time for a brand new me.

Also, since I have you, what would anyone think of adding some kind of YouTube segment? I've never really done a video blog before, but really videos can be done on and about anything. I have a YouTube account, might as well give it a bit of use.

I dunno, the year has just started and I want this year to be BIG. So help me out, give me ideas. Comment below, or tweet me. There's also a Contact Me spot on this site. I want to hear it, I'm begging. Give me your worst.