Saturday, August 19, 2017

I'm Writing Again

Well sort of. I have been doing some writing "Spring Cleaning" if you will. Going over the ideas and projects I have, see what fits with what, and what doesn't work for anything, but is still worth being shared. A few of those works that don't really have a home with any story or other project have been cleaned up, maybe a part or two added to it, and have been posted on Wattpad.

I decided to post them here in an effort to share some of my writing with the world. I'm still working on my book, as well as a few other writing projects. But this is a good test drive for me.

I hope you will read them, and please let leave a comment either on Wattpad or on this blog post to let me know what you think.

A link to my Wattpad profile can be found here.

Thank you, Emmy Jade

Friday, July 28, 2017

Same Place, New Name- And Yes I'm Still Here

It's been a long time since I have updated this blog, and for that I'm sorry.  My life gets very busy from time to time, with having a job, running and operating this and a few other websites, as well as working on my writing, and trying to finish a book. I'm still here I promise, I have a lot of catching up to do. Side note: you can also follow me, and follow my life on my other social media accounts.

Twitter: @Emmy_Jade
Instagram: EmmyJadeBooks
Snapchat: emmyjadeb
Wattpad: EmmyJadeBooks

As you may have noticed by now that this blog site not only had a makeover, but a name change as well. If you haven't then welcome to my site, take a look around and stay awhile. I decided to do a name change for a few reasons. While the blog will still be the same, and it's still about my life. And my life is always random and crazy. I wanted something that I felt more accurately described my life.

Thank you for sticking with me through all the changes my life takes me on, both in my writing and personal.


Wednesday, April 27, 2016

Inner Peace, And The Road I'm On

It seems I have been away from this blog for a while, that's not always a bad thing. But I'm back to give you a few updates, and share a thought or two I've had.

I have been slowly but surely working on my book, and other projects. As well as cleaning up all of my social media accounts. I've cleaned up my Instagram, YouTube, and next this blog. My feeling is that some of the older content just bogs down the pages.  So, out with the old in with the new.

And keeping with the theme of ' Out with the old, in with the new', I have been doing some mental spring cleaning as well.  Learning and discovering things about myself along the way. Learning how to let go.

This is going to be on the personal side, and even though I've shared a few personal blogs. I think this one is my most personal in some ways.

Making friends has not always been easy for me, I tend to be on the shy side. So when I do make a genuine friend, it's heartbreaking to lose them. It's also, at least for me, very freeing. I have discovered in the past few days, that while I'm hurt and saddened, I'm embracing parts of myself and personality I had kept somewhat hidden.

I'm finding that in letting go, even if I don't have the answers or closure that I wanted, I can move on. That the amount of time you know someone doesn't always mean they are a good or genuine friend. And that people I have known for less time, are better friends to me.

I've learned that it's not the quantity, but the quality that counts most. I have good people in my life, that love me and only want me happy. I also know, that while walking away from something that isn't good for you may be the wise choice, it's never the easy one.

I know that in the end I'm going to be ok, I just have to take baby steps.


Sunday, June 7, 2015

I Have A Secret

I'm about to share something very hard, and very personal to talk about. I have anxiety. Bad.

You wouldn't know it to look at me, and most days I hide it pretty well. At least I think I do. Most of the time when I'm in public, or around people I'm able to smile, or hold a conversation. However, there are times, even though I'm smiling, my mind is a thousand miles away. I have no idea what you are saying to me, and all I want is to flee. Go off and hide until my heart stops pounding in my ears.

Why am I telling you this now? Honestly, I'm not sure. I've suffered with this since I was young. I haven't, up until now, taken medication, or sought help. I've always tried to deal with it on my own, and alone. That's not working all. In fact, it's getting worse.

Some days even waking up can bring on the head rush of anxieties, and overwhelming emotions. And forget trying to go out in public, on a good day that is done with lots of preparation, and deep breathing. Even my part time job is a challenge, I manage, just barely.

There's many levels to panic attacks and anxiety. There is social anxiety, panic disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder, post traumatic stress disorder, and the list goes on.
These are all hidden mental health illnesses and conditions.  They are not visibly seen on the affected person. It's not like being in a wheelchair, or needing to walk with a cane, or some other viable disability. We look normal. We are, for the most part, normal.

I have a personality. I love, ironically enough, horror movies. I'm a big fan of The Beatles, I've gone to concerts. I like the color orange, and listening to rain falling on the roof. I'm funny, and I'm smart. I love going to the movies, and I read all the time. I'm a writer, and working on a book. I also have anxiety and panic attacks.

This is real. Not just for me, but for a lot of people. We often times suffer in silence, it's easier than dealing with the negative that can come along with "invisible illnesses". I should know, I'm one of them. I know in posting this blog, my world isn't going to change. I'm still going to wake up tomorrow and be me, still have anxiety.

Working on getting better isn't going to happen over night, or in a week. Maybe not even a year. But maybe in sharing, in letting you in on my secret. It can be a start.